so weird

haf things reached stability
after 10 days
this is crazy
this is whirlwind
this is so wrong
but it seems alright
probable
positive
it seems
workable
i will nevER EVER EVER EVER go clubbing in shirt and shorts again
omg that was a crazy thing to do.

now im plagued with rashes
sleep sleep
was gonna say smth abt birthday wishes
but..
scary.
i might affect the karma or delicate kismet htings

competition

f it... f it
so why shd i feel pisseddd
i dun feel pised
i feel a bit worried i think
so u say u haf a gd time
but wish u had joined ur other frens
aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
try to parallel it in my life
somehow

hiya screw it
who gives a shit
damn tired
laning sucks
o team sucks
f!
fQ!
fQ!

waltzing thoughts

keep wondering if.. god why can't i be more secure n lay off those words are reusable recyclable.. recycled? reused? already???????? can't i jus enjoy my time here in this platform space tt ive chanced upon but it is highly likely that these words were used before and im jus another one of those dumb 'chicks' who fall fal fall fall lovely lifeless doll

the house is silent, expectant, like the pause before the intake of breath

this is not how i thot it'd be like u're a blur im dizzy spin around in the din of disguise lalalla grabbed me and i held on, flattered lalallala ur motivation : jus somebody.. anybody my motivation: rather.. as always.. i duno what to do see what comes along.. perhaps we'll walk together a month or two.. jus hope the frenship sticks.. i intoxicate you huh :) nobodys said those kind of things before u prey on my naievtie (fuck the spelling) n my virgin ears but u say it too easily too much too frequently ure always half drunk dean moriarty sal paradise i hafnt eve nfinished tt f-ing book yet arthur lecomte + cleveland? shit is his name cleveland? cloud factory in the church of my heart the choir is for hire watashiwa yasuii desu. cheap whore who u tryin to kid free frag monsterkill!

is worth a thousand with anybody/ i have no bitterness my sweet

her voice has a monotony in it.. the draggy lingering french accent stuffed in the frame of anglo-syllables.. haunting background music.. it wasn't like that in the movie twas jus guitar and song... and vOice change trAck o god i could go on describing my music forever spanish song now its the kind of song that'd accompany a scene in some spanish apartment.. and ure jus lying on the bed slacking.. n ur bed faces the window + sun .. n the person u slept with last night is gone but u dun rellie care anyway but i dun rellie care anywya the cats broke some ming vase thingey fuck lets jus see how this goes sorry if i gave the impression tt i can't live wihtout u (like u'd read this) but forawhile i wantedto get out of this whole thing.. cOS like everybody says... like what i noe latently.. some pple are meant to be attached.. some pple are jus meant to be sOlitAry... and omg.. im a joker in a pack of cards...... this loveydovey mopey stuff is not me o shit i shut thre cat out i think ure a cat i like u only at night when ur pupils are huge and you look innocent but i noe where ur thoughts go right into my mouth n aroudn my tongue like theo who crashes the freakin ming vase ure evil n not vv good for me at all how am i gonna explani t obatch or myself id like to write a story of the past 4 days this is the story of a player and her game except shes half asleep inside herself ive got to wake her up.. put on her specs and grow her hair peel off the makeover but like lij says without the makeover .... effect and cause have kinda swopped places pawned my dignity im a new alterego aroudn x only foudn myself again while lanning o dear is tt who i am now was discussing chicks with lil bitch the other day lil bitch : why dun u turn straight me: haf u ever considered playnig with a guy lil bitch: nO.. me: neither have i lil bitch : wanna put my tender heart in a blender watch it spin aroudn into oblivion rendez vous n im thru with yOu felt my life tuned in songs so we were slacking aroudn n every song that played had some reference to the stiuatino those sad sad til i get over you why you dump me do you love me omg sappy and not me fuck then pirates who don't do anything came on treading on the water logged waffle ridges of our destined road see what happens la i keep backing out on what i say anyway but right now this is gonna get printed on a deletable page so im improving

half a day of little bitch + a bit of rgs + her

am being lpayed am being played bitch says im gone liao i think im not can la can la but cant talk how

blidn assassin

somehwo i thought of this book weird/// why grace is now behind me.. shes so pretty seriuosly why cant pple realise how pretty they are or beautiful i really think she is and i gotta thank lil bitch sigh he's so nice jus there.. jus hanging aronud there ... mabbe he was jus lanning away but still grace is babbling on.. im jus listening.. amused if i were a guy id go for her babble babble shes crazy *fond* yday wad to make of it see wad happens today dun care anymore now i can see y some pple get attafched weven if they dun lyk each other or smth i duno im damn glad im not a guy grace is telling me about ns got rashes all over miss my fmaily feel sad for grace thats the real stuff lust or l O v i dun even dare spell it how come some pple useit so easdily mabbe im the freak got rashes all over slpet 4 hours need to meet ms tan n ms loh later meet her later so how does it feel to be... in one of those movie like scenes mabbe ill be a director much fodder yday blind assassin whos the bkuid assassub' m i e victime still god.

at batch hosue

i think spelling errors will prevent pple frm googling.. to this site.. phew had a long bus ride w lil bitch jus now... tokked abt god and stuffs sigh.. lifee wads this man umm qasar got to go to that place one day i like this change in lifestyle keep changin keep changing dun stay still so life as long as i keep changing my lifestyle i wun wander off the edge again mabbe too preoccupied to take a step back n look but now n then i will then ill wonder i wun get anywhere get worried mabbe feel slightly superior that heyy im pondering abt deep stuffs down here noe n den go back to the hollow that is my life n keep chanigng hollows shes so shallow who am i to say tt well our r/ship is so shallow we barely noe each other we don't noe so why is this keeping up can sense the strain in her smses maybe i don'tk now why she even bothers i noe why i bother now and then stuff like these enter my life and i cling on to them cos they promise a lifestyle change twice rejected twice thrown back but not all changes welcome why this one then eligibility boredom yen to be different always always always i can't seem to be content to dissolve into the mass oh yea in korea mabbe.. coodnt be bothered when im done babbling i must find out why the cat is mewing hungry when im dnoe crapping i must go cook soudns ike a baby the friggin cat theooo theeeyoooo frigger off

opendiarys down

so hellO blogger.. diary of umm qasar
tts a cool umm qasar
shd haf hearfd the channel newsasia newswoman say it .. the iraq war times
umm qasar
i was q sad when they advacned to bassariah (was it) n then there were no more umm qasars to hear
newae so opendiarys down
n sudenyl i feel like blogging

why ah

mabbe im becoming hollow
but if i dont tell anybody
at least i keep tt part of myself

im so obsessed with these kinda 'right' things
nutty

ok so.. wad do i want to do here..
i want to go karaoking. now.
i want to move over to batchelor's house. noW
all my bags are packed im ready to go
but his doors friggin lcoked
n i jus spoilt the rhyme

so im a nut blowing my own balloon.. ill burst my own balloon an eventual thing u noe but mabbe ill jus haf fun voiding my lungs of air n let it hurt and hurt
and ill think its the heart's tt hurting but no..
n then after tt illl feel happy when it bursts n fresh air enters n ill be back

she applied her creams of dreams*

felt horribly guitly abt an old friend
are we friends? kidna strange

at the moment of trust or no i doubted and ~*
but it was q unconscious.. to both of us i think
but mabbe she internalised this.. so on reflex both of us
would have this.. awkwardness b/w us for awhile
but guised by the easygoing chatty selves we haf/r

sisterss.. another knot in my purple thread
theres so much to build upon love

hmm

wad crap
umm qasar
tis nice rhythm u noe